Focus

I spend much of my time doing work that provides me with money and looking for work that provides me with money, engaging with friends who offer ideas for me to make money. This is my life now. Making ends meet has to be the focus.

Meanwhile my creativity seems to be thriving. I have many ideas for new work and many works “in progress. “ if I have even a moment free, I work on these.

I have to take time for health. I must eat properly, and thank fuck for Charles, who ensures we eat cheaply and within my dietary requirements. Yesterday he made us a pizza with a crust made from ground chicken. It was exquisite.

I do fitness on video three times a week, 75 minutes per session. I walk daily for at least half an hour. I do my phototherapy sessions three times a week and getting there and back takes about an hour.

I run Bywords.ca as a volunteer which takes at least an hour or more daily.

Today I am feeling the weight of all this pressure. I do take some time to spend time with dear friends and fortunely I am not in this alone. Charles and I are enjoying each other's company greatly. I am very fortunate. We are fighting this fight of trying to survive and to find joy in difficult times.

I know many of you are doing the same. Life in the 21st century is fraught with pressure, and worries. People are fighting for the right to exist. It's tough. I take a moment to acknowledge this struggle. To offer love to all who are struggling. And to apologize for nor being there for those who could use my help, my attention.

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