romance + creativity + wild

a yearning for non platonic art connection

IMAGE DESCRIPTION: graffiti wall at the DIY skate park with the light falling beautifully on the art. trees in the background.

after my last long term relationship with T, i vowed not to get sexually involved with fellow artists again. I've written about my reasons for avoiding the artistic community for potential lovers for years. But recently a beautiful poet changed my mind. I imagined all kinds of scenarios: we would enjoy intimacy and make art about it. We would attend events openly as lovers.

Sometimes when I've gotten sexually involved with fellow artists, they have insisted on keeping the relationship a secret. I have abided by their need for secrecy but I don't like being a dirty little secret. I am an openlysexual creative creature. I love combining art and sex.

I've tried being sexual with those who aren't doing work they consider creative. It's not their faults but I get way too bored. Especially those who spend their days working at jobs they do not have a passion for and it just seems to take away all their zest for living. I know I am very fortunate to prioritize my art, but I do make some sacrifices to do so.

So yes, I want sexual relationships with creative people: chefs, gardeners, photographers, video game makers, musicians, poets, novelists, tattoo artists, sculptors…something creative. I am driven by creativity. The best sex I have ever had has always been with fellow creative types.

As a woman with a high libido and a pleasure slut, I occasionally have random hookups, but it is never really satisfying. There’s always the feeling that I am missing something.

I'm a weirdo in my artistic community, made up primarily of straight cis monogamous people. or if they are queer and non-monogamous, they are closeted. i don't feel like i belong.

i recently came so close to having a sexual friendship with a beautiful and talented poet but it was not to be. no one is to blame. i am not what he needs at this moment.

so I'm wallowing a bit..imagining like-minded sexually free artists who are caring, compassionate and wild.

did i say i am lonely? i am. all the platonic hugs in the world…as lovely as they are…won't cure this loneliness.